These last couple of years I have had to put a lot of thought into what I’m capable of doing on a day to day basis. There are many factors that go into my decisions, but the most important thing for me to remember is that it isn’t consistent.
There are weeks or months where I can barely get out of bed every day, and then there are times when I can go for a couple of weeks staying pretty busy. I know that if I’m going to have a busy day, I’ll have to plan rest time the day after, or right after the activity. If it’s going to be a busy few days, my rest time may have to extend to a whole week or more.
It got even more confusing when I finally agreed to start taking painkillers. I have times when I feel like everything is fine, and then my meds wear off, and I remember why I had to take it in the first place.
Today I went bowling with my family, and it was so much fun while we were playing. I could tell I was getting tired during the second game, and when we got back to the house I had to take a nap. I overdid things, and I will regret that part of it for a few days, but it was nice knowing that I could bowl again/still.
It’s important for me to find my balance sometimes. Some days it’s too much for me to cook dinner. I don’t always want to say no to activities with my family, but I don’t want to spend a week in bed after every fun thing I do. Balance sucks sometimes.